i was depressed because i couldnt understand an english book after i bought it. i could understand nothing. i thought maybe i should study english hard and only by this could i learn a lot of knowledge and understand english aw well as communicate with others in english. i told myself, ‘just go’.
today, i opened my free forum and i was very happy because i could do a lot of things there. i decided to upgrade my forum and make it interesting. then i will make it grow up and at the same time, i can write down what i want to say there. i will be very happy.
i made a decision today. becuase i often lose my confidence, i decide tell myself ‘go’ in front of mirror after getting up every day. i believe this will make me confident. thus, i can do things i want bravely. now, i will say, ‘keep going’.
today, i did housework for grandmother. she is not very healthy and i decide to do housework for her more frequently. and she will feel happy and become better. suddenly, an idea hit me that it’s terrible to grow old becuase you have to worry about both your health and others’ opinions. once again, i make a decision to be a good girl.
i went out to have dinner with father today. i should make toast during the dinner but there was no juice availabe. so i had a bottle of beer. my face turned red but i was not drunk. i dont think beer tastes bad but i wont like have it too much because i am only a student.